Tuesday, July 6, 2010

4 months...

It's been 4 months since J has been away and I am more than a little over it. I miss having my best friend around. The person who knows me better than I know myself. This weekend felt especially hard. J's parents left Thursday and I had the house to myself for the whole long weekend. I had forgotten how much work it is to keep a house clean all by yourself while you are cooking, running to work, and just generally being on the go. It made me appreciate how easy my MoLaw and Fasha make it look. And the house is lonely. Just me and Bob Barker. I missed having someone to talk to, or someone just in the house at the same time. I can't wait for the hubs to get back home so I can be with my bestie again. 
So to get away from the loneliness I headed up to the Lake where some of my friends were camping. Not gonna lie, I didn't have the best time. One of my good friends K was being a total downer. She complained about everything. It's too cold, the water is too choppy, so and so won't come over to our camp she just stays at hers. And nothing I said made a bit of difference. I am pretty sure my positive attitude just annoyed her. But I stayed, thinking that at some point we are going to have fun, right? Eh... Not really. Just the amazing-ness of camping with fires and making s'mores. I love s'mores. THAT was fun. 
While I was hanging out with my friends I missed J more. I missed having someone to talk to. I missed having someone to say, "uh, it is me? Am I ticking her off? Should I let it  go? Should I go talk to her? Or is she just being pissy?" I missed having someone to joke around with and be silly with. I missed my camping partner. The person who makes camping fun for me. I miss my best friend. 
And (thankfully) J's school is coming to an end. I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I am ready to move past this stage and move to the Island. And I am going to be happy about being in Washington because at least I will have sand underneith my feet. And, according to the weather on my phone, this week it will actually get into the 80's there! Apparently the sun does shine up there sometimes!!! 
Hopefully we will know today if J is going to deploy right away or not. My life may be in the hand of the Navy, but not my happiness. If he deploys right away I will take joy in the fact that we are getting it done and over with now. If he doesn't deploy right away I will enjoy being with my husband again and drooling over him in his uniforms. =)
Sorry for the long post... Just my jumbled thoughts spilling out. 
Love, 
L <3

5 comments:

Meesh said...

I felt like I was reading one of my own posts. It sucks big ones not having your bestie around, and thank goodness for animals to make the house slightly less lonely right?? xoxo

Amanda said...

stay strong girl!!! im so glad you get to see your honey soon, just keep busy!!!

♥Miss Brittney♥ said...

I sooo know how you feel. We are in the last leg of this deployment and although I know its gonna be over soon, the days still drag and I am so ready to have my husband home again. I'm glad you have such a positive attitude about everything, and you're right, at least if he gets deployed right away (like my hubby) you guys will get it over with and then be able to have more time together afterwards! :)

Star Spangled said...

Hi there! Thanks for the sweet comment. I'm glad I found your blog!

Geez, I hate when I go somewhere and people have a bad attitude. I don't know if some people don't realize that being so negative affects the whole group. But hey, at least you got a s'more out of it. :) Here's hoping your next outing is better!

L said...

S'mores make everything better!