Oh Baby!

Wow, becoming a mom is a strange thing. I feel like he is all I can think about and all I could possibly talk about. So I apologize if I get a little boring.

I almost posted about a week ago about how hard motherhood has been. Don't get me wrong, I love my little man more than anything. But it is HARD. And we have had a hard week. The lil man is a little colic-y (we think) and him crying is really hard on me. Add in that I am overly emotional and it makes for a hard week. I am so thankful for all the family support we have had. My mom being here was amazing! Those first few weeks I am pretty sure that it took 3 of us to take care of one little ninja. And her being here gave me the confidence to take care of him on my own. Having my dad and his girl friend here for the weekend was so special. I feel like my relationship with my dad got better and it was so sweet to see him interact with my baby. Plus they convinced J and I to go on a date. I know how important it is to make sure that our relationship is strong so we can take care of H better, but it is easy to get caught up in the routine of baby care.

This last weekend my Auntie and MoLaw were here (MoLaw is still here) and that has been a relief. After a week of crying baby (and crying mom!), up (what feels like) all night, and just not dealing with stress well it was so nice to have them here. Friday, I cried the whole way home from picking them up with relief. And it was a relief because we just had a real chat about how life has been and how NORMAL this all is. I'm sure all the moms out there can attest to how crazy life is with a newborn and not going thru this before, you feel like a freak. And it was so nice to just know that everything I am going thru is normal, and everything my baby is going thru is normal.

MoLaw is here now and I am enjoying the extra hands to hold the baby. Today has been really really good so far (knock on wood!!!) We are trying the babywise method and last night was our first night of letting the little ninja cry it out a little bit. It took maybe 5 min of crying, and the lil bugger was out like a light. And on our first night, he slept 4 hours, ate for 25 min, slept 4 hours, ate for 20 min, and then slept for 3 hours. It was AMAZING. Because the night before he slept between 1 1/2 hours to 3 hours. And that was sooooo hard. Add in that he was cranky, spit up a ton, then threw up on me and it was a ROUGH night for all of us.

Generally he sleeps 2 1/2 - 3 hours at a time. I am hoping that the babywise method will work for us. Routine is going to be really important and it's up to us to keep it up.

Well, it's time to wake the babe and let him eat. Hope I don't bore the crap out of you with all my baby talk.

Love,
L